La Vita E Sogno

I wrote this yesterday, but not having internet at the apartment, I have to wait to stop at Starbucks.

Today is 11.11.11, day to make the most epic wish ever. And I knew ahead of time what my wish is for today. I just want to know where I’ll be in 2 months. The uncertainty is desperating!

For so long I tried to keep my feet on the ground about studying abroad next semester. But since last week, when I met all the other people that are going, and they were 100% sure that they are going, already planning all their trips and weekends. And I felt so stupid. Followed by that I felt the illusion growing in me, and it hasn’t stopped since. But then I hear that little voice. “But you’re short by so much money. You don’t even know if you’re getting the Gilman yet”. I don’t want to listen to that voice, but to be honest, it’s the truth.

But here’s the deal. I have to be acting like I already know I’m going. Requesting Visa. Looking for flights. To buy list. To do list. And to be honest I’m afraid that in the end it will be all in vain and I will have to stay here. I’m taking a risk and being the first time doing so, it’s scary. But it would be even worse if I never took the risk at all to make my dreams come true.

Sometimes I forget that I’m a child of God, and that he doesn’t put his children to shame. And so here I walk by faith and not by sight, cause if not, I would have given up a long time ago.

So my wish for 11.11.11 is to be able to study in Spain next year and get to know better this wonderful world God created and the people in it.